And as the final curtain falls..........

I think it is time to bring this blog to a cose. It was about my life as Mr.B's sidekick, Mrs.B. that is no longer the story.

If you still find yourself compelled to follow the roadcrash that is the story of my life you can read more here be nice to see you!

mmmmmmmmmmmm

running on empt; physically and metaphorically speaking!

physicaly I am exhausted; this course, my family situation, winter, birthdays are all wearing me down.
my mind is empty of any thoughts other than - whats the next thing to be completed for this course and whencan I next get some sleep.

not an inspiring blog entry but thats me folks!

Sometimes

Sometimes it strikes me how lonely I am

I could be in the house with the family

I can be in supermarket in the middle of the day

I can be on campus surrounded by chattering students

But I am alone, so lonely

I always have been

I mourn for what I have lost

When I should be celebrating what I have

Jumping on the band-wagon?

If the writers at the BBC would have their way this is how all baby loss women would end up. Insane. Baby snatchers. Locked up.
And as for what they would have you believe midwives act, well don't get me started! mistakes about paperwork (the amazing disappearing talipes!), loss of 20% from birthweight not explored, disregarding concerns over mums mental health............................

But less of that, and back to my main point;

Am I jumping on the backlash bandwagon?

No I have decided I can not be a sheep and be sucked into the whole 'can't-miss-an-episode-of-my-soap' mentality

Eastenders writers you have let yourself, and your viewers, down badly.

I have watched Eastenders since the very beginning, I have loved the characters (not all, some grated on me!), admired how you have tackled some subjects (the Mark HIV storyline springs to mind).

But this Ronnie / Kat storyline is wrong.

So many inconsistency have been thrown up, I am not even going to start listing them as I am sure you have spotted them or read about them for themselves, but if you are unaware of it all I can recommend a read of this fabulous blog as she is very witty with her observations.

As for me I won't be watching Eastenders until they finish with this god awful handling of a very sensitive subject. I understand that originally the story was going to go on for a year, then with the Ronnie actress leaving they brought that forward to May. Yesterday at uni I overheard two girls saying its being brought to an end now.

I have complainedto the Beeb about their handling of this - and if you feel as strongly as me then please add your comments

If you want to know how this has affected someone personally please visit Jeanettes blog.

Take note BBC, women who losetheir babies are not insane baby stealers -they are human beings with feelings!

These boots are made for walking.......................

Last year my faithful walking boots of 8 years sprung a leak, I was devastated it had taken such a long time to break those boots in and they were now like a second skin. We have been through so many exciting adventures together - RIP lovely boots.

This year I have acquired a new pair of boots - from Hotter shoes new range of gore-tex shoes for women.

And they arrived just in time - the day before the massive snowfall hit the UK!

Well, WOW! so comfortable, no breaking in needed from the first time I popped them onto my dainty (hahahhaah!) feet.

They have had a lot of use over the last few weeks from; traipsing in the garden to fill the bird feeders, battling through the slush to buy milk and even to the theatre! (OK so it was 'only' the matinee performance of a pantomime!)

Would I recommend them? yes, yes, yes definitely. I have the blue version and even my 18 year old said they are nice, and look cute with jeans. They are not great big clod hoppers, looking like a foot soldier would wear them, they are definitely more suited to the genteel female!

Skiing!

So there you go she is a natural! apparently.

Her instructor was an absolute diamond, so patient with middle child. And incredibly encouraging



so what can I say about the Snow Centre? The staff were lovely! from helping us find out where to go to helping us work out what clothing and equipment in what size middle child needed.



once she was ready and packed off with the instructor, her Dad, me and the littliest went upstairs to watch - you can choose to watch from an open balcony (although it can be up to minus 8c) or you can sit in front of a fire, with a glass of something in your hand (or a frothy coffee from the costa) here she is ready, but not looking too happy

but its ok, she has red boots!

possibly her favourite bit was the cable that took her up!




although she was pretty good at coming down!






I guess it will be Ski Lessons now then *sigh*

How do they do it?

Two questions I want to ask about university life;

1. How is it that, normally lovely and interesting, midwives can turn a two hour lecture into a complete mind numbing experience?
2. How do full time students do it? lectures day after day after day, week after week after week. Thank heavens my course is 60% practice based!

We are currently finishing the 3rd of 4 weeks in University, something I had been looking forward to to have a rest from 12 hour shifts. But now I cant wait to get back out there!
See you in SCBU in a weeks time!